It isn't what it sounds like.
It's not an institution. It's
not even a program. It's
sort of an inside joke, but of
the sort the Irish call "half fun and full earnest."
Over the last dozen years or
so, our tiny church has seen
if not a stream, then at least a
steady trickle of the ordained but-not-ministering-as-such
wash up on our shore.
They're a diverse lot --
surprisingly ecumenical, for
one thing (we've even had an
Eastern-rite Roman Catholic,
and they are not exactly a
dime a dozen). They come
straight from failed ministries,
or years from successful ones
they nevertheless left behind. They come in varying stages
of health -- physical,
emotional, and spiritual.
Our program (for want of a
better term) is simple. We put
them to work -- volunteering,
mind you -- as musicians,
pastoral care providers, or
preachers, and generally invite
them into the life of a
congregation that seems to
have much in common with Rudolph the Red-Nosed
Reindeer's Island of Misfit
Toys. We tell them our stories,
we make them laugh. And
then, in most cases, we wave a
happy goodbye as they return
to their calling.
It is God's humor that they
come ashore here. In the
middle of the 20th century,
this congregation had a
reputation as a
clergy killer. It was
deserved, too --
sometimes, after
spring rains, one can
still discern in the
parsonage basement a whiff of the chinchillas that one
pastor took to raising
there when he wasn't
being paid. In due
time, he left the
chinchillas, the
congregation, the
ministry, and the
church. He eventually
found his way back
to faith, and through
a remarkable series
of events, he was
able to come to the
congregation's 125th
anniversary, where
more healing came about
just weeks before he died.
The congregation is not
exactly about the business of
expiating our guilt here, but
we do know a thing or two
about how good pastors are
damaged by bad situations.
And, more to the point, we
are acutely aware that the
church, in its local or larger expressions, doesn't always
act as it should. Our "wayward"
clergy, every one
of them, just seem to find
that part hard to handle.
These clergy have some
other things in common as
well. They are uniformly bright
and pious and skilled. They've
all made mistakes, and are all
damaged in some way (but
what human is not?). Some
have trouble owning up to
their mistakes; others to forgiving themselves even
after others have forgiven
them. And each one has an
air of innocence -- offended
innocence. Sophisticated in
other areas of their lives,
they have nonetheless
expected the church
consistently to live to its
highest calling. This speaks
well of their faith and of their
hope. It does not speak well
of those responsible for
their formation.
Now, with all the things that theological schools need to
teach, it is hard to demand that this topic should make it
into the curriculum (although
it's hard to imagine a church
history class that doesn't
make the point). We do not
anticipate an accreditation
standard to address this issue.
Besides, it is a lesson best
learned from experience, and
it has to be done one on one.
Pray for the church -- in
public, if that is one of your
roles -- that it may live to its
calling, that it may not drive
away its own. Pray that
"wayward" clergy can forgive
and be forgiven. And share
your stories -- stories of
disaster, yes, but stories of
healing, too. Equip the saints
with the knowledge that
change does happen, that joy
can be restored. And a sense
of humor doesn't hurt, either. |